Sunday, May 19, 2013


*expletive expletive
and the door went BLAGH!!!

honestly, i didn't see it coming but i guess it was meant to happen.

and no matter how many times i replay it in my head, during that particular moment when i could've just kept my mouth shut or just left the house to go to work or just stopped...but i didn't.

phat kid was right. i know how to push the right buttons to make him angry. i know what strings to pull so he'll lose his patience. i know how to construct the perfect sentence to push him to his limits.

and i used it. consciously or unconsciously.

i know him very well. so well that i always have a gut feel whenever something is not right with him.

that night, i went to work not thinking what has happened. denial perhaps. or plain numbness. or i knew we will work it out after we have cooled down. of course we had countless of fights or petty quarrels. the only difference with this one was he declared break-up. which took me by surprise because all this time he kept on saying that i'm the vulnerable one and that i'll be the one to give up.

but i guess at the end of the day, what's important is that he comes running back to you and no matter how many times you hear the words "i'm sorry" like a broken record, it still works like magic and you work things out.

phat kid and i still have a lot of things to figure out. we learned and still learning a lot from one another. heck, we were like high school kids when we decided to try again, just banking on our feelings and faith.

feelings and faith. i kept on staring at these two words. and something inside tells me that we will be okay.

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  1. "feelings and faith. i kept on staring at these two words. and something inside tells me that we will be okay."

    I agree, Johnny Boy! If we could all just get by on feelings and faith, the world would be a crazier pero free-er place!

  2. People really are adept at making things complicated. Shucks. I need to be reminded from time to time.

  3. The best part of this fight is the make up sex that (hopefully) comes after LOL.